My
name is Lawrencia Ameh but I like to be called lolo. I am an openly out lesbian.
I am a human rights defender and a paralegal.
Tell
us about your background - growing up
I
grew up in a military home with a very religious mother and an army general as
a father. I am the first of 4kids. I also had a very reserved childhood. I have
lived in Abuja all my life, I was born in Abuja. I was involved in a lot of
sports as a child especially basketball. I have 2 younger sisters and a younger
brother.
So
you mentioned being an openly out Lesbian. When and how did you discovered/identified
yourself?
Well,
as a child I always knew I was different, but I couldn't explain it. I came to
terms with my Sexuality during my first degree in Law at University
of Abuja. It came with a lot of personal struggles, but in 2007 I was able to
deal with it. I was outted to my family by my brother. My family always
suspected I was gay because in secondary school I was suspended a lot for being
a lesbian with no evidence of course.... Lol! It was because I had always been
a tomboy, so a lot of people just assume. It was a crazy experience but I got
through it.
So
do you have any affection/attraction for the opposite Sex?
No
I don't. I did try to experiment but I ended up freaking out. Lol! It's not my
thing.
So
how did your family take your coming out and how has it been so far with your
family and friends?
Hmmm!
It was and still not a good experience.
Can
you share some of your challenging experiences?
My
relationship with my mum is nonexistent right now, It’s been one hell of a ride,
I was taken to church for deliverance. I had to move out of my house, I was
beaten by my mum. I lost a lot of privileges from my Family. My dad is the love
of my life, so his always going to be in myself, he loves me just the way I am. My
mum went to my work place to threatening my Boss, She threaten my friends as well. I
was locked in a church for almost 8 days; I was told I had an evil spirit
inside me. I was also told I have been delivered of the spirit of lesbianism. I
was a lot of drama, I got to a point I almost took my own life. Thank God a
friend of mine found me.
You
mentioned your Dad is the love of your life and going to be in yourself, Can
you break it down?
He
has always been very supportive of everything I do; He encourages me a lot to be
someone great, He always say am his pride and joy "Blushes". He
always says I shouldn't let anyone treat me differently because am a woman. He
lives here in Abuja. Oh! He is the best father ever. His been a hands on dad, 100%,
He is my support system.
How
has it been living in an unfriendly environment, in the midst of family,
friends and society that doesn't respect/accept your Sexual Orientation and
Identity?
It's
been crazy you know? You walk on the street and people call you Names, ask if you
have a Dick, if you are into sports or music. You have people ask you why you
prefer women to men. Some men will say if they have sex with you; you will
forget about women. You have some calling you an abormination. Some friends
don't want to hangout with you because they can't be seen with you. Family force you to get married or you will be disowned. It's been so much to deal with. I
got to a point I almost took my own life.
But
have you ever faced harassment or assault as a result of Anti - LGBT laws
(Religious/Federal)?
No, not really, I haven't, I was harassed by a law enforcement agent once, but as
soon as he found out who I was he let me go, you know how things work in
Nigeria. In the aspect of religion I am not religious, so not really, I have
only faced harassment from family and friends.
Does
it mean that its individuals that are not influential that face harassment from
law enforcement agency as regards Anti LGBT laws?
No
oh… of course not, it happened just once; Only God knows what will happen the
next time. But have I faced law enforcement harassment as regards to the anti
gay law? Personally no. I have managed to stay out of harm’s way. I know where
to be and where not to be.
So
what exactly has motivated you to speak out as a Lesbian?
Like
I said before; as a child I knew I was different, I struggled with it a lot, I
was humiliated a lot by my very close family members and friends, I went into
depression and almost took my own life, I was called a demon, I was told by
family members that I was the cause of all the problems in my Family. When I was in SS2,
I was locked in the church for 8days because they were trying to cleanse me of
lesbianism. I was beaten by my mum, I was isolated. Depression is common in the
lesbian community. A very good friend of mine took her own life because of the
struggle of her Sexuality. "My
motivation to speak out as a lesbian comes from the pain I felt as a human
being", from losing my friend, from trying to make people
understand I was born this way. My motivation comes from trying to tell other
lesbians going through what I have gone through that they are not alone and
they are not abnormal.
Does
your being a Lesbian have anything to do with becoming a Human Rights Defender
and a Paralegal?
No
not really, I have always had passion for Law, I always wanted to be a
lawyer but it surely did contribute to it.
How
has your work as a Human Rights Defender and Paralegal impacted your
Community/Peers?
Oh!
To the best of my knowledge it's been a great work. They come to me at anytime
they want or call me. They feel safe and free to talk to me. And it makes me
very happy.
What
can you tell us about the lesbian community generally?
A
lot of work needs to be done in and for the lesbian community. The gay community
takes all of the attention because it is said that they are most at risk. It's a lot,
so you have to be a lil more specific.
What
are the struggles of the Lesbian Community; Security, Health, Relationships,
Social well-being and Risk in General?
We
have a lot of all these struggles. You know people believe that the lesbians
are at low or no risk of all this threats which is not true. When it comes to
HIV, we are at lower risk than MSM yes, but we are at risk too. We have a lot
of issues with rape, corrective rape, security issues, forced marriages and so
on, but we are given little or no attention, which I think isn't fare. We are
not even considered as KP. Like really I don't get it! We have no one to turn to;
it’s always about the MSM and Others. It's high time the lesbian community get noticed. We deal with a lot of issues such as; domestic violence,
depression, drug abuse, violation of rights and many more. But there's no
avenue to report these issues and get help. You can't pay attention to just one
particular group and forget about the others. A lot of research needs to be carried
out in the lesbian community. We need health interventions. We need security as
well. We have transgender and bisexual as well. I know the lesbian community
needs visibility but we have to start from somewhere.
Really
excited we finally have someone speaking out for the lesbian community.
Well, someone needs to speak out…You know, It's getting out of hand.
But
is it true that one of the reasons why lesbians are not recognized is because
they have refused to come out or because they are not visible. How can visibility
be possible especially in a hostile environment such as Nigeria?
That's
why I said we need to start from somewhere. Some of us are ready to speak out
and be visible no matter how small we are, it needs to be done.
So
what are the immediate needs of the Lesbian Community and how can they be visible?
A
needs assessment needs to be done. A proper research should be done. The
lesbian community should also be involved in all KP activities.
Are
there other issues, topics or areas you want us to consider or discuss?
Well, I will like to see a society were all lesbians have adequate access to health
care services, legal services, security and a lot more. They need trainings on
gender identity and expression, even on sexual reproductive health, HIV prevention,
treatment and many more.
Thank
you for your time and motivation to speak out
Thank
you too. I appreciate you for having it in mind to interview a
lesbian lol! And pleased you guys are thinking about us now. Lol!
Lesbians
are women who have sex with women and have attraction for other women. This
group also have Transgender, Bisexuals and Intersex. They are all LGBTI inclusive and
should be recognized as such. All LGBTI including Lesbians face hostility, rejection, discrimination, stigma, unlawful arrest/detention, criminating laws and all
sort of human rights violation in about 78 countries including Nigeria which is
against our God given rights.